Transformative Honeymoons

So after the disaster at my ex-church, I actually wound up having a
really good day yesterday. I went out jamming and the music was good,
bumped into several people I know and we talked a bit, played a little
and couples got up dancing and everybody was having fun.
I actually walked out of a bar feeling good and feeling like I had a good time.
I was still alone, but so what?  For a couple hours it was good music with
friends and I was a part of it.

So yeh that's a lot better than sitting in a crappy bar alone for an hour,
nursing a beer. Either way I leave alone -which would you choose?

I'm still looking forward to going to the Pride parade and all that.
I hope to have a good time there (but trust me, while I'd enjoy
kissing a cute guy, I won't be standing around in public with my
shirt off, reaching down his pants, not in public - that's what called
artistic lisence)

So yesterday one of the musicians asked me to sit in with them for a
little at a gig later this week with his group, so I have that on my schedule
(cool). I'm working Sat and Sun full days and doing some volunteering
Saturday morning, so I'm kind of glad I can sleep in Sunday and not worry
about church anymore (we heathens have it good).

I wasn't able to arrange the interview I talked about, but had a phone
interview about a position down South -I'm very qualified and if the
moneys there, sure I'd relocate. but I didn't arrange the one interview
(I had to leave a message, instead) and I didn't hear back from last
week (the balls in their court as they say), so I'm still looking.

Day 2 of my diet
The D+X Institute is kind of fun -I'm real new there, but so far it is fun,
in a role play site - waiting for them to femminize me.  I've all ready
indicated a willingness, but I think it might be fun to make it like real
life, and start off willing then add more doubts and hesitations as I
go along (even though the whole time I always will want the same thing).
It might be interesting to see how it develops.  So I'm trying to role-play
the gender therapy episode, but to a different outcome of course.
My female avatar has my actual female physical proportions (but
with the 50 pounds I am aiming to lose all ready lost - artistic lisence
again). Stacy Wilderness is the name I'm using over there.

I'm going to postpone buying the fem stuff I talked about, and use the
money to see a therapist (general therapist -visit #2, not gender therapist)
which sucks, but with money being this tight right now - it's a matter of
what's really important, not that the fem stuff isn't really important, but
money is really tight ( and I seriously doubt if you understand what I am
saying, but thanks for trying).

Take care,

Samantha